So....we still don't have any info from BFAS on our referral. We are passed the 1 month MAX offered by our agency...and well nothing...no new time frame even though we have asked MANY times for one.....no idea if there are people ahead of us in line....nothing.....very frustrating....seems to be the theme with this agency for me.....I am so past being optimistic. Now I must say that this post would have been much different an hour ago as I was going about my life with adoption nicely tucked into the back of my mind but today there are rumored to be referrals for older kids...boys only though. I am so happy these little guys will have homes. However, me (selfishly I know) am more frustrated because....you all know the whine that is about to erupt from my fingertips 1) told instant referral to 1 month max 2) no update even when requested 3 times at least) Agitu said over a month ago that they have girls in our age group waiting in the orphanage.
So...NO NEWS.... more frustration. I really wish I had great news to offer or could sugar coat this all but if you know me well...you know I don't sugar coat...and don't hind my emotions well There is real raw emotion involved in waiting....life decisions on hold...and dang it...it hurts. Please don't leave comments today about me needing to be patient...I might scream in my comments section....I realize that the adult thing to do is sit nicely with my hands in my lap and go on with my life like a sane person.....just let me thrown my virtual fit.....because dang it I need to get it out.