We were accepted by BFAS yesterday!!! After more number crunching and soul searching we have decided to make the switch. I sent an email to CHSFS today to let them know. This is basically what we said,

"We have decided to leave CHSFS to work with another agency that has children in our age range who are waiting for a family right now. Our heart is to serve the children who are in the greatest need of a home and we feel at this time children already in an orphanage waiting for a family best suits this idea. We appreciate the great service we received with our first adoption and are leaving with great sadness as we enjoyed working with everyone! We will continue to spread the good news about CHSFS’s services to people who are looking for a great, well organized agency."

My heart is still aflutter from it all but I know I will settle in once our refund is in hand and on its way to the new agency.

This weekend I prayed alot about all of this. I really feel now like we are on the right path for our family. Many of you know that we had decided that we wanted to adopt again immediately after arriving home with Wubitu. With Wubitu's very difficult transition & the enourmous cost (2X) many said that we shouldn't do it again. But we knew in our hearts that this is what we wanted to do. So, also, as many of you know I don't like to be told what I can and cannot do so I pushed at this hard! So hard that I started to second guess whether this was God's plan for our family or my selfish ambition. This hit especially hard when a fellow blog friend pulled out of her wait for a domestic adoption because she felt it was her doing and not God's leading. Not being in God's will for such a huge life event and financial undertaking is a VERY SCARY place to be and I do not ever want to be in that position. After much prayer and no real confirmation, I looked over BFAS's yahoo group from start to finish and came across a link to one of the orphanages that they work with and tears and I started to cry....not because the children looked sad (they all looked happy) but I feel God was trying to lead us to change to BFAS. Of course I am not easily convinced so I continued to pray. Sunday during communion the drama team did thier thing and what struck me hard was when a mom and child huddled together together hugging. With tears streaming down my face I knew then and there that God was calling me to a mother again... the most important job... and my calling for this season in my life. I am confindent again that this is what God wants for our family and I am praying that He again provides mightily for this adoption to bring our little girl home.