So it has been over 2 weeks since my last post. I have started to post many times but every time I sat down to type something I would be lost in my own inner turmoil. The headaches came back 2 weeks ago and lasted for an entire week. This caused me to be in tears for 3-4 hours everyday and the rest of the time I just walked around exhausted. However, I am thankful for this time, as it helped me to solidify within myself that I love my daughter. Having the headaches made it very difficult for me to respond positively to the children in thier everyday squables over who gets to open and/or shut the door, who gets to pray first, etc... I had to choose to LOVE them. I carried around 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 in my pocket to remind myself of God's definition of love: "Love is patient and kind, Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice in injustice but rejoices whenever truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful and endurs through every circumstance" For awhile I felt like I was losing hope as the transition of our new family has taken so much energy but these verses, with much prayer for strength, I feel like I can endure through all of the cirumstances of everyday stay at home mom life and seek to show God's love in every interaction with my children. We are constantly seeking new ways to slow down every part of our lives to make time to just sit and watch Dora together, read more books, take a walk around the block, and just breath.