So the headaches came back last week starting on Monday. I dealt rather well with it until Friday when I completely lost all semblance of sanity. The headache is honestly not as bad as not knowing how to get rid of it and wondering if this is what my life will be like forever. Literally crying was the only way to relieve the pain so at one point I actually pinched myself really hard so that it would hurt and I could cry to relieve the pressure in my head...this made me think that I might be losing my mind....which helped to sustain the crying for an hour..relieving the pressure for about 10 minutes and then the pain would come back. So after trying all the previous things including the suggestions about magnesium, fiber, caffine, I couldn't be rid of the headaches so I kind of lost it. There is nothing worse than losing hope that you will ever feel better. I climbed in my closet to cry for a long time, until Torrey came to hold me and tell me that I would be okay....assured me that it probably isn't a brain tumor (it got that bad), I was not crazy, and we would figure it out together. The pain is dull most of the time behind my eyes like I am extremely exhausted even when I have 10 hours of sleep, it gets sharper when the kids are around and NEVER goes away on any medication.
So here is my list of possible reasons for the headaches:
1) eye strain
2) exhaustion
3) PADS
4) brain tumor
5) allergies
6) stress
7) dehydration
8) weight gain
9) unresolved emotional strain
10) Mono?
So I am going to give it one more week of trying to pinpoint the reason before heading to the doctor (who will likely say that she has no idea what it is without expensive tests).
Due to the headaches, please excuse my bad friend behaviors this week as I missed some playdates, didn't return emails, and poorly organized Anna J's meals for her new baby girl!