The last month has really eaten away at me. I am asking for your forgiveness ahead of time as I let the negative energy out. I have held on pretty well emotionally until this week. I am so tired of having my life on hold. I am tired of having to tell people that I may or may not be here during for the next meeting. I really just need a travel date!!!! I am tired of reading about the issues that MAY arise from toddler adoption and how to do hair, and what to say and not to say.....I just want to get started already!!! I am a hands on type of girl and I really need to just hold my little girl in my arms and find out who she is, what she is like, what makes her smile and giggle. I am feeling anxious about the transition and have too much time to think about the "what ifs" that it is freaking me out. I had to make a new "to do" list for this week because I am pretty sure that I won't make it through with sanity intact if I don't have something to distract me. So this week is Christmas preparation week. Torrey and I addressed our Christmas cards and signed them today. I plan to get 100% of my shopping done with presents wrapped because we will likely travel Dec 7th or later at this point which means we won't hit US soil until Dec 15th (9 crazy days before Christmas Eve) with a little frightened girl who will need all of our attention. I guess it is good to have the time to prepare now.
Praying for some travel excitement.....I need the adrenaline flowing through my veins again (yes, I know I am a stress junkie)