I have been very busy lately quiting stuff. That's right....I now concede that I am not the master of the universe and I can't keep up with my duties of trying to control everything around me that my children and I are involved in. Last week it hit me...I can't do this anymore! I had several days with only 5 hours of sleep and realized that the way that I felt that second day with lack of sleep will probably be the way the next year will go after Keziah Webitu comes home. I have been very unfair to my boys in the last few years with the number of commitments we have had to various ministries and part time jobs. Often they have been seen just wondering the halls at church or the YMCA (okay...usually wrestling, screaming, and running) while Torrey and I attend to our responsibilities with Junior Bible Quiz, Parent Pager Maintenance, Early Childhood, MOPS, and our tendencies to socialize after these activities. At home I have been known to be chained to the computer for 8 hours at a time to finish various projects for church and work. So we are finally simplifying (yes, I know I have been saying this for years.....but I really mean it this time....REALLY!) I am currently in the process of handing over my responsibilities as JBQ coordinator. This was especially hard since we have run the program for the last 8 years....it's our baby...we have been JBQing longer than we have been married or had children! I tried to waffle on this when I saw that we have our VERY OWN CLOSET in the new building! We even have a block of rooms! This is a huge step up from when we had class in the Chidren's ministry closet because there was no room for Pee Wee JBQ! But alas, Mary Jane has kept me accountable to my family and I have to forsake my love of office supplies and organization to be a better mother... the most important thing. I have stepped down from the MOPS stearing team and only have 3 more days left at the YMCA! I am feeling better already...bye, bye chest pains and stress acne!!!!

The next step will be to learn how to be home and just be home. I have never done it before. When Noah was born I was going to school full time and graduated 2 weeks after Carter was born at which time I continued watching Destiny and Nathan Full time and added working part time for Early Childhood and a year later part time at the YMCA.....I kind of collect responsibliities. I am learning to say this awesome two letter word but it doesn't come naturally it is...you guessed it....NO!

Anyway, it will be interesting to see how I fair without a mile long to do list....encourage me please...
I don't have to control everything
It is okay to say "no"
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