So I sent out our letter to friends and family for the Life International Matching grant. It was very nerve racking to send it out to everyone. It is one thing to tell our story to people we know will give us good reception but to send it to everyone I know, is quite another. I really struggled with being seen as "a nut job" or a "religious freak." Even some family and friends who are Christians often shy away from the tangible workings of the Holy Spirit. But it all comes down to what do I love more? God or what people of this world think of me? It took a lot of mental wrestling to get my mind where it should be. This verse is what brought me to my senses:

"I tell you, whoever acknowledges me before men, the Son of Man will also acknowledge him before the angels of God. But he who disowns me before men will be disowned before the angels of God."Luke 12:8-9

I am slowly working myself out of my complacent Christian shell to tell the story of our adoption...the true story... not the watered down "we really just wanted another baby" story. We have been given an awesome testimony of God's faithfulness when you simply obey and trust. I am so thankful to have be in the midst of such an incredible journey but I am still very weak in telling other about it in a place where people might see me as a "whack job".

At work the other day I was telling a member about our adoption and how everything has just coming together and she said "isn't it funny how everything just works out"....... pause....pause....okay Kimberley open your mouth and tell her that God is faithful.....come on.. come on....stink.....I am such a chicken! I guess it is a learning experience. I wonder when John the Baptist started if we felt like this... probably not. I have felt so guilty since talking to the lady at the Y that I will not make that mistake again. God has given me a story to tell, all I have to do is open my mouth (which has never been a problem before....sheesh!) get over myself (pride is always the problem) and let the good news fly! Bottom line: I hope more people get to experience the awesomeness of feeling so close to God and getting to see a little corner of the map He has laid out for our lives. I am honored to have the opportunity to plant the seeds, just keep reminding me to get my hand out of my pocket and sow..sow...sow.