I am having another of those days where our dream of a daughter seems so distant. I know God will provide but the wait still hurts. My hopes are so high and I am seeing victories daily but the endpoint is so far that I am letting the obstacles overshadow the victories. I chose to rejoice so here I will list today's victories and shove out my disappointments because God is good and His plan is perfect:
1) We transferred another $925 to our savings for adoption cost (Torrey's Overtime and my Y hours).
2) I finally received my paperwork from CHSFS so I can submit my Shaohannah's Hope application (waited a week and a half for this paper
3) The post office is open today so I could receive the paper and send my application
4) I called Life International and they said we can submit our application even though our dossier can't be officially approved since we don't' have the money to submit it to the agency.

Sometimes I wish I could shut my brain off, tear up my internal to do list, and turn down the OCD dial from crazy obsessed to just chilling (90's word I know.. I am officially one of those weird old people who don't know what words teenagers use) so I could think about something besides the adoption.

Things are working... even if they are not at Kimberley's petal to the metal pace... I just need to pick myself up off the ground from my little toddler tantrums before God and trust that He loves me... He knows what is best... and He has a great, awesome, wonderful gift in store for us... I just have to wait for Him to pull it all together... the wait won't kill me (even if it feels like it).